Injection day. Lied to the nurse , feel bad about it. Doesn't help that she was all "Yay! You're doing so much better!" (nope) Kinda wondering why I'm even paying for treatment if I can't be honest with anyone. Therapy in an hour or so. She doesn't help even if I am honest (first time I was honest with her I got hurt) so I will be closed off and passive aggressive as usual.
Called my ex (drunk) twice yesterday. I was honest with him for once... he had a kick out of it. I think I totally changed his perspective of me. I feel bad about that too because I told him I was bi and he took that as I am the most sexual being on this planet, kinda made a lot of jokes I laughed with him, but I don't appreciate it today. He keeps telling me he wants to be back with me. He's old, ugly, stupid, and most importantly insensitive. I only talk to him because I'm lonely and he's so attached he'll never leave me.
Can't wait for winter. Get some good sleep for once. I keep half-joking with the neighbors that we'll get snow before we get rain (honestly, probably...severe drought here, never rains, and we're getting frost already). Oh, and I was ~30ft from a bear on some mtn Friday so that was fun. They are restless as hell right now.