Hey, so I haven't been diagnosed with an eating disorder or anything but I don't know how to ask for help. All I can think about on the days that I think about telling my mom that I'm not eating are:
a) what if she thinks its a phase or not a big deal
b) what if I hate myself the next day for doing it and can't continue with the schedule I'm working on
c) what if I'm forced to quit extra curriculars and drop my honors classes
d) what if I gain wait after working so hard to finally get 'underweight' even though I feel like if anything I'm gettig fatter.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do or even how I'm supposed to get help. Any advice is welcome.
Why I think I have an ed: I skip breakfast and lunch every weekday and purge my dinner that I have to eat with my family. On the weekends I usually skip breakfast and lunch but compulsively snack all througout the day, making me feel like a failure. I also obsessively bodycheck and weigh myself.