As some of you know, I have been without internet connection in my halls of residence for a week now, but since my mood hasn't been all that low, it hasn't really affected me that much. But today I have not been feeling good. Thinking of SI, suicide, that type of thing. So tonight is going to be hard, getting through it without the support from you guys. In chat before, somebody told me, 'we'll be with you in spirit', and i will try to think of that. but still, it is not the same as being able to talk with people in chat. so i am a little scared about how tonight will go. i am probably just overexaggerating here though, maybe it won't be so bad.