I do not want this anymore, I want to be happy. Well the therapist called, she is going on vacation and does not have anytime for me basically, and she said if i get really bad I need to go to the hospital-thanks I could've told myself that too. I think I will be changing my therapist as soon as I can. Maybe my therapist is sick of me, I am too and Im sure others out there are as well. So basically I am on my own, I just have to ride this rollercoaster of emotions.