you gave me no choice... I was a child... a 2 year old.. when you hurt me... you gave me no choice.. and.. I hate you...

you... did not care... that you shattered my mind.. into pieces... when you beat my body... when you locked me in closets...when you pulled me underwater in the bathtub...nor.. did you care when you later sexually abused me...

I live life.. as an adult.. as a DIDer... trying to decide.. day after day after day... shall I make this day the last...

THAT... is your legacy.... giving me every day of my life.. as long as I can remember from childhood on... making "the choice"... to remain on this earth... one more second.. one more minute.. one more hour.. one more day..

the pain... of making "the choice"... each and every day.. is a "living hell"....

you said: "sorry, if I could live my life over, I would have done things differently"....

and... me... as much as I hate you.. I pray that you are in heaven.. and not experiencing.. the "living hell that I have on this earth"...

I do not have to die.. to experience hell - I am already there...

May God have mercy on your soul....

And.. I am glad I am not God.. because I do not have to decide.. to give you mercy or not....

Because... "the choice"... of that... would also be a "living hell"...