I "lost" my therapist....meaning.. I "lost" my trust in his "skill set"...

and for a DIDer... being able to trust a T's skill set is very important..

he.. and I do not share the same viewpoint.. on integration... and.. plus... he hurt me.. unbearably... a couple of weeks ago..

so.. what hurts.. is that he and I.... have agreed that.. we do not share the same goals.. and therapy.. is not going to work..

finding.. another T... for DID... is pretty impossible where I live... one that takes.. insurance... and.. has experience..

however, working.. with a "normal" T... will not work... did that for 4 years prior to this T... and it was pretty terrible...

have worked with other T.. as a DIDer.. however.. those therapists.. have moved on to take administrative positions.. in hospitals.. and do not do clinical work anymore..

so.. it is hurting.. am lost... have no one to turn to....