I felt better as work went on. Very calm today, only one student in the classroom and three online. My student was of course absent. He may be absent tomorrow too, but even if not, it’s a half day for students. I still feel bad for him but I’m becoming wary. Three weeks ago I was confident he wouldn’t physically harm anyone but he’s deteriorated so much that I’m no longer so sure.

I am completely physically exhausted though. I slept from 9pm to 7am and only walked 3000 steps today but still, I could go to sleep right now. It’s possible it’s from the increased lamictal. I’ve been taking 200 since June because I like to be on the least amount possible, but I am bumping back up to 300 for a little while to help me get over this dip.

I deleted Facebook today. The political stuff is just making me crazy. I won’t go into it here but there’s so much stuff that I just can’t believe people believe and support. Especially basic human rights. I’m seeing the true side of people I know and I don’t like it. I need to get away for awhile.

I want to watch a movie right now but I’m too tired. I think I’m just going to put on my trusty old Seinfeld and close my eyes. I won’t actually fall asleep until I take the seroquel, but I’m so tired that my chest is heavy and breathing feels like a chore.