((((((((freewill))))))))

in your post you said:

"trying to decide.. day after day after day... shall I make this day the last..."

if you choose to make it the last day you've let that b*sr*rd win and you know it as well as I do.

keep living your life and keep fighting to make it good and happy then you've spited that b*st*rd coz he wanted the opposite!!!

lots of love, hugs, peace and good wishes to you ((((((((freewill))))))))