i feel like i'm living in a loop that never ends. things seem a bit better and then out of nowhere, boom- i'm hit with more nightmares.. more flashbacks.

i don't just have ptsd according to my pdoc, according to my T it's all just ptsd on steroids.

i hear her, i hear them. i'm not good for myself, according to T.

he's right, i'm not. my pdoc believes i need medication, t believes i need cbt and a life change. maybe i need both? or maybe they're as lost as i am. trying to figure this all out has only made things seem worse.