This will be the fourth time therapy has had to end prematurely and the third time I’ve had a therapist get pregnant and go on maternity leave.

My last therapist ended treatment by saying “she had nothing more to offer me” and that “we’d come as far as we could together”. When I asked her if I could come back in the future she told me she was closing her practice and “taking a break for psychology for a while”. She said all this right at the end of the final session. I only got one termination session after the initial “I can’t help you anymore” spiel. That happened almost 3 years ago and I still haven’t been able to move past it.

Needless to say, this latest development of my current T being pregnant is not sitting well with me. I went into this therapeutic relationship convinced something was going to happen and she would leave me so I’m not really surprised. Yet I’m still left wondering “why does this keep happening to me?!”. I feel like the whole dynamic of the relationship has changed and is essentially ruined. I don’t see the point in continuing when she’s just going to be leaving anyway. T said she would be returning after about 6 months of leave but that’s what the other two said and they never did.

I feel as though I can’t trust her and also that I’m now burdening her with my dumb problems since she clearly has important things going on in her own life. I’ve been very resident to being open with her due to my past experiences so I really can’t be bothered to start over AGAIN with someone else. I guess I’m just not meant to be happy