Thank you for your replies Lostislost and Merope.

I don't really believe that "everything happens for a reason" other than the reason being that I keep choosing younger female therapists. I tried seeing a male T for a while but I didn't feel comfortable talking about a lot of things such as body issues and romantic relationships. I also tried an older female therapist just before this current T and she was the worst one I have seen.

T said she had been thinking about me a lot in relation to this as she knew it would be hard for me. She tried to convince me that she will be returning as she has a lease on the room and it wouldn't be smart to break the lease. I don't really believe her though, something always goes wrong. I hope talking to her about all this in our next session will help but I really just wish this wasn't happening at all.