(((((((((((((((KimmyDawn))))))))))) Thank you for sharing here. We all are amazing, aren't we.

Recently I had a realization of how DID helps me even today. My daughter was struggling to do something that had to be done. I have struggled with understanding this for a while. Why can't she just do it? It wasn't really a choice thing in my mind. She had a choice of course, but the reality was that this thing needed to be done. But she couldn't do it.

My T and I discussed it and I realized with T's help that often when I can't do something, it still gets done. And that is because when I am unable to, another part of me takes over and does. I may not always remember how it got done and sometimes I find out later that it did get done, but the fact remains that it did get done.

Ahhhh, lol. I also remember when daughter was afraid to go to a crowded place, so being a good mom, I told her to just make the people go away in your head so you can't see them. She said mom, I'm not like you, I can't do that. At the time, it struck me as so odd that she couldn't (at that time I did not realize the extent of my dissociation). Now of course, I'm thankful that she can't lol. But to be honest, I often find myself thankful for things like being able to not see things that would otherwise make me paralyzed with fear.