I’m so tired today. I didn’t take seroquel until about 10:30 last night and I had to take extra to get rid of anxiety. Im hoping to take it early tonight and go to sleep early just to catch up. I can sleep in tomorrow as I have off but still.

I’m going to try to quit nicotine. I only have 12 juul pods left and I can’t afford my monthly order bc the water bill I’ll is due. I mean, technically I have the money in my savings but I’m trying to, you know, SAVE it to pay for future things I actually need. I need to pay for my son’s braces, as well as save for a wedding (though it certainly won’t be extravagant). And we also want to buy a house in two years. We will need a Down payment for that. There’s no reason to spend $150 a month to feed my addiction if I can help it. I’ve been mostly cigarette free since January. I think I bought 2-3 packs in May when I was struggling with depression and couldn’t get my hands on menthol juul pods. They’ve been banned in my state. I’m scared though; I know I will be VERY irritable. I don’t want to be nasty to my family.

I went waaay off diet yesterday. But still ate at maintenance. Just not deficit. So it should be fine. I’ve lost 19lb as of yesterday. So close! And I’m 5lb away from being under 200!