Rant ahead.
******mit I'm a terrible person. Stuff with my ex we're still kinda together but I said something offensive and I thought he was like really leaving me and I freaked the **** out and then realized what I did and told him I still love him and begged him not to "leave" me (even though I already technically left him?). I need to learn to reign in the words before they slip out my mouth.
Ffs I gotta get sober so this madness will stop...even though the madness didn't stop before I was using and during my 8 months of sobriety
I just wish he could stop being so clingy and I could be as avoidant as I pretend to be.