Dear heyfellas,
I am so sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed. I, unfortunately, do not have any online resource recommendations for you, but I can tell you that you are not alone in your struggles and to please stay strong. It sounds like you are young and this may be a time of great stress as a result. A lot of schoolwork, SAT studies, and wondering what your next stages in life will be is no small event in a young persons life. It can be incredibly daunting, and my heart goes out to you. Considering that you are looking for anonymity, it sounds like you may not be comfortable seeking out help from parents, friends, or other family. If you can, I would highly recommend it, but if you can't, I hope you can find what you are looking for. Being able to talk things out with someone can be a huge help, but in the meantime, please breathe deep and know you are not alone, and there are many people who wish you well despite not knowing you and your story personally. Try not looking at all of it at once. Make a list of things you have to do, their deadlines, and pick away at them one by one. Let yourself feel good for what you can get done, and not just daunted by what you still have to do. Try not to let the weight of all of them fall on you at once. Perhaps reaching out to a school counselor could help. Please do not feel stuck. As I said, it sounds like you are young, and while you want to restart, it seems that your life is in no way set in stone but just beginning. The fact that you are reaching out shows a lot of consciousness and maturity. These are tough times, but I believe you can get through them as you have your whole life ahead of you. Even baby steps move you forward. Stay strong, and I wish you all the best.