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Originally Posted by Photonate
Yes, a dream like state that is such an accurate way to explain them and how they feel for me too. Same for the time stopping feeling. This is so much better and more accurate than I've ever been able to explain them.
Mine usually never last more than I'd estimate maybe 20-25, or 30 seconds for the longest ones, though most are usually only maybe ~10 seconds tops. I can't imagine how it would feel being stuck in one for any really extended period of time. I mean, there is a small part that I kinda like (probably just the dreamy type of sense) but the other 'darker' feelings wouldn't be so great to get stuck with at the same time.
I know at the end of every one I have for the first 5-10 seconds it feels like I was experiencing just the most deep, absolutely intense emotions/feelings, regardless of what they were, that I ever have in my life.
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Yes, exactly. It starts like that for me. It is a feeling of connectedness that words just cannot do justice. When it stops there it is a great experience and very spiritual for me.
When my brain gets stuck it is a waking nightmare. I do not think. Things pop into my head and I act on them immediately. Its like the normal delay life has just goes away and you just do without thinking the same way you do in a dream. I hovered over my body and watched like you can in a dream during portions of it. I blacked out for other parts.
The crazy part was how symbolic everything was. After I came out of it I talked it through with my therapist and we analyzed it the same way you do a dream. My subconscious had a lot to say while I was in that altered state. Its like it threw up almost 40 years of stuff I didn't even know was in me. So very strange.
Are you on meds? I wasn't before all of this happened. The hope now is that I can use an antipsychotic as a prn med when I feel it coming. I get days of headaches and insomnia before it gets bad, so I will hopefully see it coming next time.
My neurologist and psychiatrist somewhat disagree about whether or not I need some sort of med full time. The neurologist says to just use a prn if needed and maybe an anticonvulsant full time if my episodes get closer together. My pdoc thinks Abilify might work. I hate not knowing what causes this...