I was diagnosed with schizoaffective when I was 21. I didn’t actually know about the diagnosis until 24,(I’m 25 now) because I was told depression,ptsd,panic disorder with agoraphobia was my diagnosis and the doctor never informed me she changed it..
Anyway, this is based off of a series of traumatic events from my college era (17-21 years old) and that is the only information this doctor had because I did not know certain things were abnormal prior to then..when I was between 8-12 up to 16 before other things happened. Things
Like, thinking my cat was a robot. Or his eyes were cameras that watched me for the government. Or the weird goblin thing that followed me Across the house from outside the windows Or the weird Amish people that whispered about me when I used the bathroom and screamed at me to wash my hands when I bolted out of the bathroom out of fear of something attacking me from inside the toilet. Or the fact that after being subjected to Truman show during English curriculum in middle school intensified all persisting thought of paranoia and implemented even more ideas of who was watching me. Uh..yeah there’s more but..it’s not all important I think.. I just wanted to ask and hopefully this is Th e right place if it’s possible that this is schizophrenia and not schizoaffective disorder? My emotional problems that I have...I really believe are because I can’t properly communicate no matter how hard I try..can’t focus or think fast enough to deal with things get frustrated and lash out, and depression from the circumstances of my life. I mean my life is just bad. And I feel defeated because I can’t fix things and everyone acts like I should be able to without any issues. It’s not that simple like idk where to even start with even the littlest things and it causes me to get very angry or depressed. So..wouldn’t that be more of a complication from schizophrenia than a symptom of a cooccuring emotional illness like schizoaffective disorder? I’ve tried research. I don’t retain most of the information. I hardly am aware that I have anything wrong unless I run into schizo illnesses while hypochondriac-google searching about other things..so I would ask my current psychiatrist about it if I even remembered to. Or if I could actually verbalize things..all I can do is type my thoughts and then it’s a little coherent..but then if I reread later it’s not at all what I was trying to say or my thoughts are completely changed so what I said before is basically a lie. Just frustrated, idk how to deal with it if it is schizophrenia instead. Or how to fix my disability records, since it says this started in 2015..not 10 years prior as I realized later. So um..sorry if this isn’t the right place. It’s a question mostly..but wanted advice too.