I don't even think I have schizoaffective anymore. I have some form of something else. I don't even know. Medicated me is fine. I don't know what my real self is like though.

I wish I could demolish any need for myself to take medication. Why is it, anyway, that these substances discovered by scientists help us with our illnesses anyway? This may sound insane, and if it does, just ignore it, but I feel like it's just uncanny that a substance would destroy our symptoms. The thing is, I feel like I'm 100% correct when I have the desire to go off my meds.

Then they teach us self acceptance and things like that. Why should I accept my medicated self? I wish I could accept my situation. The reality is just that I cannot though.