I came from a difficult n traumatic childhood raised by a narcissist and I don't hate from my troubled start but rather sympathize n partially understand narcissists. I sympathize with anyone especially the troubled as I have my own story too but every relationship wit any substance is always a narcissist n I believe I convinced myself my love can change them with understanding and unconditional love but there is conditions wit abuse n now there is a type of narcissist I haven't seen n want to help and keep. He may be the very same as others but different with me and then cuts me off completely n in a month or few calls me again.. Spend few days or weeks of bliss n with no warning cuts me off..I can't take it yet I'm desperate to figure him out to help him understand what I see n hopes he awakens and we build something together more permenant, I am not sure it's possible but I feel this connection the very second I layed eyes on this man n there is nothing special in a norm but he everything in my eyes n idk why but when he cuts me off I've gotten desperate to still somehow be around they an unrelated family member who is also a narcissist but the scariest kind almost like I'm subjecting myself to dangerous situations in desperate attempt to get his attention back.. Not good n I need an understanding as to what is happening that I have absolutely no control of n possibly misinterpreting as a soulmate yet it's interpreted to how he draws me toward him n makes me feel like I'm stuck on stupid and as much as I hate this unknown, I put myself in positions I normally wouldn't just to feel closer to this individual n want nothing more than to help him understand why he is the way he is n help him break this cycle that may leave him lonely in the end..I'm confused as to what I'm even saying to try and explain what I cannot explain because I have never experienced such odd emotion and magnetized attraction