Craving like hell. I hope no one was watching me on my walk this morning lol it must've looked weird because I was heading towards "someone's house" and kept turning around. My higher power gave me the strength to come back home though, so now I just gotta stay home until these urges pass. I'm thinking about moving to get out of this "drug den" (as we are known).
I'm feeling much more myself these past few days though. I almost want to say it's been easy to brush off SI/SH thoughts. I've been able to focus/retain things slightly better. I didn't realize just how much the drug/alcohol use was affecting me, I mean people kept telling me but I didn't really understand the extent, thought I was just always like that clean and sober or not. I'm kinda wondering if after a few months if I can taper off some of my meds.
I gotta be my best self so I can take care of this guy! (I figured out how to add photos and now I'm a little obsessed haha)