Transition can be a huge stressor and will often throw us off not only in terms of our routine but also in terms of our emotions and our ability to regulate. It can take some time to stabilize and find that normal again. It's probably important for you to take small, active steps to get back to the things that you want or need to feel that control and stability again. If you know that something is important to you, start making time for it. Put it in your phone. Set it aside and make it dedicated so something else doesn't interrupt. Rebuild your routine.

On the other part, the part about feeling guilty about your mother, it's important to know and remember that you are not responsible for someone else's emotions. What they feel and how they deal with it are their issue, not yours. If someone is upset you cannot necessarily fix that, and it also doesn't help to beat yourself up for not being able to do that.

It sounds like you're noticing good things in your life in the midst of the challenges. Celebrate and accept the positive, and give yourself permission to work on the rest. Recovery, happiness, and stability are a process. It's not a switch that gets flipped or a cycle on a machine that gets set and forgotten.