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Sep 30, 2020, 02:55 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
My kid isn't even HERE today and I’m anxious as hell. Like full on can’t breathe can’t stop my heart sick to my stomach ********. Not all day but a lot of it. I don’t really know what to do. There’s no specific thoughts that go with it though so I can’t even do like CBT or anything to confront the negative thinking.
Last night was horrible. I really felt like I was dying. I knew I wasn’t so I didn’t go to the ER but I sure felt like going just to beg for a benzo. I almost called a psych emergency line but then I realized the only thing that would be acceptable for me would be an emergency prescription for a benzo, but how tf was I supposed to pick it up? My dumbass pharmacy would be SURE to **** up the prescription.
I don’t know what to do! It’s not bad enough to take time off, but I really feel like I’m losing it.
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It sounds to me like the way you feels definitely warrants some time off. Because what happens when the child returns? It seems you need some distance and space right now to reassess.
CBT affirmations are a great idea, unless you are truly in physical danger. At least, that's the way I see it. The way you're feeling isn't a thought, it's a sense of being actually, physically threatened. Maybe a fight or flight reaction.
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