I'm like you with meds I hate taking them and detest it. I've been off my meds about 5 months. Unlike you though I have nothing to lose as I'm single, no kids, no job etc.

I'm eventually going to start a med I think its next week on the 8th. I'm away to start the depot injection for Aririprazole.

Maybe you can look into alternative ways to help take the meds? Mines has to be this way as I can't keep going on and off my meds. I've decided to let my mental health team take the reins over my meds. This might be a good thing for me