Today would've been one week without self harming, except it's not because last night I kept hearing a male child telling me to hurt myself. At first I tried to ignore it, but when I was going to bed I couldn't so I cut.
The ****** part is that's it's somewhere that on Tuesday when I get my injection the nurse will see it and ask a lot of questions and email the rest of my treatment team. My pdoc is already frustrated with me for being drunk during our last phone appointment(s) and my t is also frustrated because I have gained no headway since I started seeing her a year and a half ago, maybe even slid backwards.
I'm still having hallucinations today, but they're not telling me to do anything right now so I guess that's good.
I just wish I could go a day without screwing up.