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Originally Posted by Guinevere69
Attachment disorder could be possible I have codependent tendencies attaching to adults. After I had him I was seen for postpartum depression on top of my severe depression and anxiety already but I dont think it really helped, I could never actually leave him I'm worried what effect a co-state/co-parenting plan may have on him considering school...
P.S. No offense taken I greatly appreciated your reply that's why I post I like to know the opinion of others, if there are other people who feel like me or have similar experiences, thoughts, or issues and I am beginning regular therapy again now. I know I have a lot of mental problems and I'm not ashamed or afraid to admit (not face to face though) and that is probably part of the reason I'm worried about being a bad mom because I'm so messed up in my head I dont want my kids to be the same or not be able to take care of them because I cant take care of myself or them see me have an episode or grow up having to apologize for having a crazy mom. I want my boys to grow up safe and loved and I guess I'm worried I cant give them that.
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I want to sincerely apologize for my earlier and first post. I was too harsh, and honestly, I didn't mean to be. I worried for your kids' future if you were to leave them.
I DO understand your predicament, and I feel for you. It's a very difficult position to be in.
And I can understand how you feel - I never wanted children myself initially because I thought I was too messed up to be a good mother. I thought about adoption at one point because then I wouldn't pass on my genes or any of my mental health issues. Then I abandoned the notion of kids altogether because I determined I am too free spirited and enjoy my freedom.
I'm very sorry you experience and suffer from mental health issues. I wish I knew what else to say, but mainly I wanted to apologize, and let you know that I sympathize.