Dear T,
I really appreciate your caring responses to my text. You do know this is just reinforcing me though, right? I mean, of course I'd want you to reply, but if you say things like text is just for scheduling then respond favorably to my text about being scared of doctor's, then....that implies it's OK sometimes? But maybe you replied because you felt bad for not responding to my email.

I also wonder if my tears weren't all just regarding fears about the appointment, but also that I was literally a stone's throw from your office, and it made me sad. I intentionally took a different way than I usually would leaving to avoid driving by your office because I didn't know if I could deal with it.


And I'm out right now, trying to do a bit of work while enjoying the fresh air.

Love,
LT