(((((Freewill))))))
Your unbendable rules make me weep - most of them are mine too and the pain in them screams out. But you are absolutely not "unacceptable." You are acceptable and worthy and deserving of love, compassion, and consideration. I am so sorry that you have been given such pain. It is not fair, it is not right. But you have so much to offer - so much wisdom, so much love, so much compassion. Safe and warm hugs to you.