It's happening again, right now! I'm so MAD!

Sorry I haven't said anything back to my last/first post about T forgetting our session Tuesday. I meant to update once I saw T today and talked to her about this because after reading everyone's supportive comments I did realize that ignoring or stuffing more pain down is not helping.

ANYWAYS, getting back to this moment happening as I'm typing! My T did not get on for our 5pm appt that was changed to 5 Sunday evening by her in a text convo. So I signed off after a while, visibly upset, but went into the rest of the house to be with family. I get a missed call and 2 texts from T literally a few minutes into 6pm, our original session time made last week, asking where I'm at and if I'm getting on. I rush texted YES as I was sprinting to my laptop, fell up the stairs, and signed into my computer as fast as possible all while trying to put a bra on to look more decent! I tried calling her and it went straight to her office voicemail. I sent her a text that I was online. Nada. I have gotten absolutely no response from her in the last over 30 minutes now. I'm sitting here like a wanker in her virtual "lobby" with my camera on and her online as well because it says she is available. I literally texted her 1 freaking minute after she sent her second text asking if I was getting on! I believe she must have taken another session. I'm getting pissed by the minute and tears are welling up in my eyes. I've never felt so dismissed, unimportant, and like I don't matter. Especially by someone I admire so much! I feel ridiculous, yet highly upset nonetheless. How dare she not give me a few extra minutes and time when I've been completely forgotten about!! Her and I are fixing to go around and around!