My Support Forums - View Single Post - Bipolar Check-in Thread #50

bpcyclist · Oct 02, 2020, 10:32 AM

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Originally Posted by Sapien

I joined SMART Recovery yesterday.

Possible trigger:

I was hanging out with a neighbor and he said he was scared because thought I OD'd because I was passed out and not breathing well, but I woke up. Kinda wish I hadn't. I also feel bad because last night I cut and this morning I called my ex and blamed it on him for not being up at frickin 1am. He feels bad and told me he turns his phone off at night so he doesn't disrupt his roommate with all the notifications.

My pdoc is giving up on me and turning me over to another provider within the same mental health center. I guess she really did not like how our last phone appointment went. She's the second pdoc at this place to pass me on to someone else and the fourth (edit: fifth if you count IOP) pdoc to completely abandon me within the past 5 years. F'n fed up with this ****.

Yay! SMART Recovery is great! Connect. Stay after it.

These are hard hours and days. Ask for support. Stay connected to other humans. Breathe. Meditate. Pray. Walk. Whatever. Don't use. You will make it. One hour at a time. Do not let your disease kill you. You can push through this crap and onto the light. It will be awesome.