hmm.You know, my friends, some tiems i feel alone, but only in relative for certain situations.

Like now i came form the class to our apartment and my roomate told me that "we are going to eat here now LOT`S of people just so that you know
"I see"

I answered. With her came another girl from our class. (she is my class mate not only roommate)

So now theri guest went and theus they are 3 and there was an empty place near the table. And the roomate and the class mate and her boyfriend (a roomate too, he lives with us they are in the same room, of course) the 3 of them eat. She didn`t invite me to eat with them. To the gues, b4 he went she told "there was enough food for 4 and more) and I just went to my room and close the door.

I don`t complain and i am not offended
I don`t think SHE HAD to invite me to eat with them
You know IT IS NOT about eating but about BEING A PART OF the group. Our class mate is sittiling there and what i can`t?

I am trying not to feel offended adn angry because she is DOESN` Have to AND sometimes long ago she would invite me and i would refuse. But anyways it felt somewhat lonely and unwanted althought i don`t think she has somethign personal against me

She just always has thos lunches when she invites friends and her boyfriend and she cook huge meals and they sit 4 or 5 people and at this round small table...and ear and tlak talk talk and i hear their voices right not and their noises and all of that.

It feels like this just because it`s relative though

Like: When i am lone i DON`T FEEL alone. I feel fine

Interesting doing you think so ?