Should I email you with every toggle in my thinking? That would let you see how my brain is processing this.

Now I want to talk to you. I don't think I really think you might be mad at me. I hope you are not mad at me. I hope my words are able to not touch you in that way. They are not untrue. A part of me feels deeply betrayed. The intensity varies from very low to medium in that feeling. It is deep though.

It feels like they are undoing what it took you/us 2-3 years to get to in terms of trust and belief.

I kind of think that this has weighed on you... or maybe I hope it has. I know you are mad at them.