Three years ago one of the main reasons I also fell out with my old best friend group was when one of them cancelled on me more than once, but threw a birthday party for someone who wasn't really in our friendship group I was also hurt and very jealous. I found out today that they only threw a last min party because his sister had just died and they wanted to do something just for him.

With creepy guy and L - I was glad that I did have them to support me in the gap time, but it never felt the same. L made an effort to say hi to me but I chose to sit in the back row as I didn't want to talk in the morning. It was nice just turning up at R's and sitting on her floor. She's super cute and always made sure I was eating.