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I thought I would write a bit more in response to your post because it really struck home with me. I hope that's okay.
I feel a constant urge to talk about the past. I don't do it though. I don't see a therapist. And there's no one else who would want to hear it... or should for that matter. Plus... as I get older I'm losing more-&-more of the spotty memory I had to begin with. So I now no longer even trust that I could put together a coherent history. And there would be so many different aspects to it, it would be difficult integrate them all into the picture.
My life has been such a confusing, disturbing mess it takes my breath away just to think about it. .
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I can relate...
Never been a very nostalgic person before the last years of my life; i was neither looking forward, but wandering everywhere with the mind.... everywhere but into home... into how to make my life healthier and safe
And this clashes with what I've been in other moments of my life... quite practical, and serious. tried at least
Actually it was not really a rollercoaster with ups and downs but more a "evil" lake that i won't escape
My father was a victim along with my mother... of mine
They haven't been perfect when I was young I have to say, but still
I can't believe what "daughter" i've been as an adult in the late part of my life
So passive-aggressive, stupid, cruel
And all the people I let go without saying sorry taking them for granted
One in particular is hauting me