when i was talking to a psych the other day she pointed out that the smarter you are (and we're all very smart) the more trouble we have adjusting to depression and anxiety....i had not thought of that, but somehow it makes sense to me. a lot of creative people that i know suffer from both. a singer that i used to live next door to talked with me about this a lot. i think for myself, depression came first with anxiety right on it's coattails. and you mentioned will power...my first husband used to tell me that all of this was "in your head".......will power schmill power......we just have to struggle with it and it's different for everyone.