I feel like I’m doing recovery wrong. My mom says I eat too much (objectively) and says I should be more considerate and caring as this life isn’t just about me. She said if I thought about her more, the ED would go away. I feel like a selfish, fat f**k... I tried telling her that it’s in my plan to eat 3 meals a day but apparently my food choices and portions are bad and too much... I’m always in binge mode and I haven’t been able to bp in a long while so maybe subconsciously I eat a lot as if I’m binging so I could purge? Idk. I feel like I’m doing this wrong. I should know how to control myself by now...