Change can be hard because our mind comes up with all sorts of things that aren't true just to scare us. Taking this med challenges some of the beliefs you carry especially when unwell. Your fight or flight response is probably activating. It can cause all of what you've listed. That is normal, but it isn't a sign you shouldn't take the med.

Remember, you decided to do this for your health. You decided you would give it a try and see how it goes. It isn't forever and if it doesn't work you'll know it and you can work with your team to adjust it.

You heard from a lot of really wise users here that also take the same med. They told you how it worked well for them and helped them stabilize while making med compliance easier. You really need those two things.

If you're still unsure, go back and read your posts over the last three months or so. All of the evidence that you need is within your own words.

You can do this. Don't let your mind trick you out of doing the right thing. You deserve more than that and the chance to find stability.