Most people do the best they can. God forgives all for everything, should we wish it. It is written. Forgiving ourselves is an act of gentle love from God. Not forgiving can, does, has, and may lead to outright evil. Jealousy, lies, cheating, murder. You need to search your soul. What is so special about you that you cannot forgive you, but God can? So, you are more talented and unique than your creator? That is your illness talking to you.

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