Hugs.

You are having the same response I did when Trump got sick. My brain went to--I a going to die alone and psychotic and noone will bury me or take care of my children and Albert. Terror. I believed this because I was worried Russia was going to send a missile to my psychiatrist's house in response to Trump's moment of weakness. When I stated that here and that I was scared, good humans informed that it was factually quite unlikely for Putin to bomb my pdoc's house, based on all available evidence. I immediately felt calmer and began to incorporate that information into my reality.