I won't. I think I worded it wrong. All I'm saying is that for at least the next 6months-1 year, I won't have meds to rely on to help out with the extremes. Maybe after that time the extremes will calm down, or maybe I'll go back to how I was before I started using, or maybe there is a new me that is permanently messed up from the using and boozing, I don't really know.