Lemon re disorganized attachment - boy that describes you and me (esp me!) doesnt it? It describes a lot of my relationships - always cat and mouse, push and pull - its more about the game, the chase. Sometimes when im fixing dinner i think about another hungry mouth to feed? And im just disgusted. But it MIGHT have something to do with having had so many unhappy experiences in that venue. Dont worry, @@ - im not counting this recent nooch misadventure - my jar says gluten free!!