There will be meds, just nothing i've tried has done anything to help the rages, similar extreme emotions, and suicidal thoughts, and I keep being told meds won't do anything in that regard when drugs and withdrawal are in the picture so I guess for the next year I'll just have to suck it up and be suicidal, use my coping skills, and hope it ends at some point. I s'pose that's what I deserve anyways.

Also my pdoc is tossing me to another provider and idk how competent he or she will be or if they'll just refuse treatment all together like in the past.