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Old Oct 04, 2020, 07:07 PM
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So, long story short. I have bp 1, multiple long IP stays. Had manic spending. Psychotic a lot. Turned finances over to now ex, whom I treasure, mother of my precious daughter. Superb mommy. Ethical. Forthright. Responsible. 15 years ago. Me, super sick. So, money super tight for past many yrs. Would get reports of bills not paid, maybe. Confusing. I realize tonight she probably has been suffering from a shopping addiction forever. High IQ. Totally hidden. Not an evil molecule in her. Not one. But, I am almost 100 percent sure now she has been struggling all by herself for 15 years. My income to her is fairly high, supposedly. Whatever. Basically, I worked 100 hours a week for maybe 22 years to get in that position for children and me, too.

So, how to approach her? Huge trauma history, shame, bad PTSD. morally, in her soul, she is the sweetest, most generous person I know. She literally saved my life. Do not think she has has had any legal stuff, or whatever. But, I see shadow people under my door. Just need some help from you guys. Not really sure, like, what I am sposed to do and stuff. My best friend is a banker, but he dies not know about this whatever idea I just had
Am I sounding psychotic maybe? Thanks.
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