Also I think what it is and maybe you guys get this, but if one thing seems off (like the weather) I get really exisential. Wondering what is the point of being if it means nothing in the long run? If everything is going to be erased why be here now? As of the past few months these feelings have felt not too harsh, but when I'm in an environment I just left like school it makes me t.w not want to be here because the pain is unbearable. Deep down that still feels like an option and it is safe to uncover this trauma.

It's kind of flawed and inconvenient logic, especially when you get overwhelmed by even the slightest thing.

How are you guys spending your days? I've found work in several places and have a couple interviews which is exciting.