Hi bpcyclist. I truly believe you have sounded unwell lately. Have you contacted your psychiatrist? If not, please do. It's important that you take care of yourself well.

I do not know what your ex's situation is. I am assuming she does have stuff going on, but you say she's smart. I will then assume she can fend enough for herself. You know in airplanes they always say to put your oxygen mask on before helping put it on others? That is because if you run out, you are no help to others.

Any shadow people are surely psychosis or cognitive distortion. Over anxiety is usually cognitive distortion, too. For example, your worry about Trump's covid. He'll likely be fine. Or if he isn't, his administration will know what to do. Life will go on, even with some hiccups. Please don't worry about such things. It will be OK.