Let me be blunt, I’ll cut to the chase. I want to meet someone new, a female since I’m a straight male. The truth is that the beginning of this adventure (the first date etc.) will be truly delightful, like in a movie. I’m gonna do my absolute best to collect some great, rememberable moments for both of us. I’ve been always like this and it usually works.

However, the bad news is that I used to “be” like that for two reasons: to get admiration I need from the girl and to destroy my potential competition, whoever those guys are, or at least show her that I can do better.

This is just how I work and it does not work in the long term (guess why)… but this time I want to change the rules of the game during the half-time break, sort to speak. I’m ready to work my ***** off with my therapist to become more human and to eliminate bad, narcissist habits. I think I got the theory by know. I need practice though… but I do not want to toy with anybody… I can’t approach this without those bad motives at the beginning, because I’m wired that way… Is it okay to be little fake just to become more real after a while or should I drop this idea before someone gets hurt?