wise,

It isn't about getting the inner b itch out of your head instead it is learning to use music to soothe the savage b itch.

I know my issues are different but I can fully understand what you've written here and just thought I'd offer up my perspective of trying to drive out the 'bad' or 'negative' parts. Doesn't work! Instead you learn to win them over, earn their trust, and compromise.

A little of more flies with honey than vinegar.......... Also a lot of self love involved which is hard when one feels like you've expressed feeling.

Bit by bit you have been replacing the older coping strategies with newer and better ones. You're quite capable of this and when the time is right that inner b itch will soften up enough for you to see she isn't so awful after all.

(((wieswoman)))