Don't really know what to say...except I feel my insaity starting to set in!! I'm a an adult but refuse to ask for out-side help, thats the way I was brought up.

We can't cry, we are a burden to complain, so everything is held
in with out release. Last May I was hospitalized for a suicide
attempt, in a coma for 4 days and its a miracle I'm alive today!

I hate living like this....My mother is sick as most of you know
from dementia, and respiratory problems. Now I have Oxygen to
take care of, meds, meals, Bills for her and I. I having S Ideations againa....it scares me, but once I cross the threshold
its no stopping mee.

I'm so exhausted most of the time, my body hurts and I just get so disgusted.....I just felt I needed to Vent.

I haven't been on as much lately cause I'm running 24/7!!! Its
taking such a toll on me...I just need to sleep for a long time!

I know these inner signs there not good!!! They spell Doom!!!

Been there before, maybe i should go back in and take some-time
like lst year before I try an Internal Sleep????

IDK.....seems so all confusing no direction, no one who cares,
a wicked mother back at her worst of all time...Giving up slowly,
a dirt nap sounds so peaceful at this time!!!!!!!!!