My story here goes nothing: It all started back when I was a kid, like around age 10-12, I can not remember alot of things around that time it seems like its all a blur but lately things have been coming back to me about a certain night, that I stayed at my uncles house with his daughter and him we all slept in his bed and I remember feeling really gross afterwards. Some other things that I will touch on later(unable to confront as of yet). I then started getting depression which would last like what seemed like forever and I started cutting at the age of 14. I was overweight as a kid and my so called friends in school along with others would make fun of me cuz i was fat. So I would hold of these things in and eventually when I would get home I would bawl my eyes out and hit walls with my fists, then I started cutting my wrists to aleviate the pain I was feeling. My parents always argued every nite and I would hear them say things like " if the girls were not ever born we could get divorced" and things like that, so in return I felt like I was the reason my parents stayed together. There is so much more to say but I can not go thru anymore of this pain. This is the first part of my story-when I get more courage to post the rest I will.