My husband sent me a video yesterday that he thought was hysterical, yet which I thought was very sexist, from the female standpoint.

The video was of a scantily clad woman at a gas station, driving her car from one gas tank to another, trying to figure out how to fill up her car. Clearly, she could not figure it out (meaning, she did not know which side her tank was on). She drove from tank to tank, clueless.

I got really upset and told him that it was sexist, and then in my emotional state said I couldn't believe that I am even with him.

This morning he was really upset because I had said that.

When we talked about the video last night, I explained how it comes across as sexist. He explained to me that he didn't view it that way at all -- that it wasn't gender specific for him, but rather just funny that someone couldn't figure out where the gas tank was - male or female.

But it was a female, and a scantily clad female, so I thought the video was stereotyping women.

So this morning, he barely kissed me goodbye and did not hug me back when I hugged him to wish him a good day.

I also told him last night that I still want to go to couples therapy, and I think that upset him too.

He has greatly improved his behaviors, but a part of me feels this new version of himself is fake and all an act just to keep me. I don't know if it's an act - that's more so my own fear talking. Perhaps he truly is changing his ways and all for the better.

But I worry that he will revert back to his abusive ways. So I am waiting to see if this changed behavior sticks.

I still feel therapy would be beneficial. Whenever something like this video pops up, I feel I need to educate my husband, it reminds me of past negative behaviors and then I question whether I should leave him.

And I don't know if he is playing dumb about the sexist video. To me, it's pretty obviously sexist.

I really don't know how I feel right now... but I feel badly that I said I don't even know why I am with him. He's hurt by that.