I don't want to do this anymore. Every little thing is some ENORMOUS trigger for me, and I can't take it anymore. I called my friend because I'm in CRISIS but all I got was "that girl really f'ked you over. Call a crisis line." And then I called my mom and all she said was "obviously something's not working, see you later." And I'm legit hallucinating the police are here I can hear the sirens and their voices but they're just yelling at me this isn't what they did last time.
I want to die...and no, I'm not calling the crisis line because they'll just send the actual police there and hospitalize me where I'll calm down for a week, come home, and deal with all this **** all over again.